Sleep

Last night I could not sleep. There was something on my mind ,and I could not figure out what was it. I stayed up until 12 a. m. attempting to understand why I was so erractic in my thoughts. I knew there were no huge changes in my life or additional stress ,but I could not figure out why I could not sleep. Not being able to figure out my insomnia is a first for me; usually I can relax myself to figure out what is the issue and then attempt to fix what ever is troubling me. Last night was different even after relaxing myself I could not figure out what caused me to be wide awake at 12 a.m. I guess last night was one of those can't explain moments in life that I just need to leave alone. Which doing that is hard for me to do because I need to know why certain situations present themselevs in my life , so that I can better understand myself. I have this inane part of myself that wants to have my life make logical sense,to fit into my idea of how situations should go ,and to run somewhat smoothly. That seems for the most part plausable to me ,but realistically wanting to have my life work this way can drive me crazy very often. I think I may have figured it out , wow I am very dense. My sister is leaving today to go overseas to Egypt for military reasons. That is why I could not sleep because I am concerened about her saftey when she arrives on forgein land. I would not be this worried if it was a personal trip,because she is going over to Egypt as military personel is what worries me. Especially the fact that a lot of people in other countries do not like the U.S military and may create issues for her unit while she is there. Plus, my sister is a true indepenant american woman which is another factor on it's own. Whew! I'm glad I have an understanding of why I was troubled last night. I know her and the unit will come back safe! I just have to keep positive thoughts which will keep me from going insane. :)