Question

Ever feel as if life has this huge lagh and for some reason you are not in on it? Really can't understand why thing happen but live not worried as to why? Wanting to find an inner peace but all that is recieved is inner turmoil? Screams are heard from the outside but for some reason you can't hear them? Could this be the life we woke up each day to start with? Help with the understanding of the routine. Make it seem easy make it seem right. A realist may say life is what it is and deal an optomistic person would say you are the best in what you are there is always tomorrow and tomorrow is better each day but today is great. the mindless drabble of a person trying to go sane. What is sane? What is the norm? Can it be what I see each day? I don't know or do I care? On and on I can go but will it reach why I do what it is ?

Religous life

I took this quiz on Saturday and it started me to thinking after I read the results: Your beliefs most closely resemble those of Buddhism. Do more research on Buddhism and possibly consider becoming Buddhist, if you are not already.In Buddhism, there are Four Noble Truths: (1) Life is suffering. (2) All suffering is caused by ignorance of the nature of reality and the craving, attachment, and grasping that result from such ignorance. (3) Suffering can be ended by overcoming ignorance and attachment. (4) The path to the suppression of suffering is the Noble Eightfold Path, which consists of right views, right intention, right speech, right action, right livelihood, right effort, right-mindedness, and right contemplation. These eight are usually divided into three categories that base the Buddhist faith: morality, wisdom, and Samadhi, or concentration. In Buddhism, there is no hierarchy, nor caste system; the Buddha taught that one's spiritual worth is not based on birth.

Well the funny thing is that I was thinking of changing my religion over to being a Buddhist with some Christian tendency. Which I am not certain about because to have a belief should a person be true to just one? That is the delma I am in.. There are aspects of both beliefs that I like but I do not like the religious part of either which causes the confusion I have now as well as disbelief in the faith.. If I take the man made views out of the picture I think I should be fine .. So I am going to do both because it is what I want to believe which should not matter to others.. Nor do I care..

I like the ideas of Buddhist because it makes each person responsible for themselves not need to go through another to feel better. It as well teaches self control over things you can control and some insight to things that I can not. If I follow the path then I can live right but as well knowing there is something higher than myself I can be fine. With Christianity it is somewhat the same but you do for others out of kindness knowing that in time those will be repaid as well to forgive and let go. I like to pray to the Supreme Being to help and insight but to believe that I need to go though Christ to talk to the One is ridiculous. In a way I see Jesus as a man that made it easy to do so but I need not pay reverence to a man that made it a little easy to talk to One.

I know I am on a tangent but this is off subject which cause me to start to think :I want to let go of a lot of thing but that is so hard to feel completely alone but yet know that I am not.. I guess family is somewhat always there but they sometimes can not fill the void that someone else could. I guess I will need to get over that I have ;one hurdle to get over I don't need a second to compound my issues. I am going to take some time and really research into all of this to make a well educated decision that I feel comfortable with. Well I guess I will deal with this and then move on to the next which I think is going to take more time to situate. Darn emotion and reasons to escape the mundane life. :) Me