I’ve been the other woman for a month now.
There are moments that I forget he loves her and appreciates me.
During the moments of time that I think are mine always mine
Are only to be intruded by her because she is the queen in the full house of cards.
I am the joker that is placed haphazardly in the deck
All the while I know this wrong but I am assured that it’s okay to be the other one.
I believed when he said I wish I met you sooner.
When he’s on the phone telling her his longing lover for her
When I voice a concern that I am human and I am becoming attached
That he needs to choose sides.
I’m brushed off because I am here with him more that she is
So why bitch and complain
Just wait till she decides it’s over between her and me
Wait till its over between her and me. That’s what I am supposed to do
Am I that desperate to have someone at my side?
Doing the things
I have never had inside even out side
To look in the mirror and know I am last in his mind
To look in the mirror and know I am second to another
Is this what I am the other woman to any man
When did a become so low to be the other woman to a man
Standing, facing, and calling out my concern
Fighting for what was never mine
Crying as if it was me he was cheating on
Hearing the voice inside reminding me
I’m the other women
I justify my lie
Because I am human and need what he’s offering
Becoming attached to an attached man
Is truly that bad
Telling him and lying to myself that I am the new replacement
Only to hear
I am selfish hormonal and cruel
To make him decide who he cares for more inside even outside
Being insulted with an excuse as to why he can’t hurt her inside even outside
But really hearing
I lover her
You are convenient
And I am never leaving unless she finds out and dumps my ass
Realizing that I am
Demoralizing myself because of what he does
Inside
Outside
Emotional
Financial
For me
Justifying the lie
Because no other man I have met has done the same
Creating the action to
Leave him because I know he’ll never become mine
All the while
Sitting silently as I play the other woman for a month now.
